Fuck You Homophobia!!

A very sweet message to all those homophobic people….

Sing along now!

I’m not Ok

I’m starting yet again in a new company and i’ve never been so scared in my life, hindi ko ma-explain yung takot na nararamdaman ko, hindi ko alam kung natatakot ba ako dahil magsisimula na naman ako o natatakot ako dahil baka matulad lang ito sa mga nauna kong attempt to start over again.

Kagabi, alas-tres na ng umaga pero hindi pa rin ako makatulog, bumalik ulit yung pain, I’ll probably never get over it and probably wala rin makakaintindi sa nararamdam ko. Basta, ang alam ko, maayos ako dati bago mangyari ang lahat ng ito, may pangarap ako, may goal pero pagkatapos kong malaman lahat ng dapat kong malaman, parang nawala lahat sa akin.

It’s been seven months pero eto pa rin ako, pilit na nagpapaka-ok. Hindi madali kalimutan ang lahat ng mga nangyari, hindi naman ako robot, hindi naman ako manhid. Masakit na malaman na yung minahal mo ng anim na taon e ginago ka lang pala the whole time, masakit na malaman ang lahat ng detalye ng panloloko sa’yo at mahirap makalimutan lahat ng iyon.

It hurts the most to feel na na-stuck ka na dun sa emotion na yun, while the people involved have moved on na parang wala lang sa kanila ang lahat ng nangyari, nakalimutan na yung sakit na ginawa nila samantalang ikaw e struggling to heal pa din.

From day one eversince that happened, I tried to be OK, when in fact I’m not and still here I’am struggling to move on. Well, it’s time to stop the pretense. i’m not OK.

Adam Lambert’s “I Cant Make You Love Me”

It’s official. I’m addicted to this song, so addicted that  i tried to download several versions of it. Pathetic me!  Well, in my effort to check who else has a version of the song, i tried searching again in Youtube and lucky me….I got Adam Lambert from American Idol. My song for the moment and my crush for the moment. check it out you guys! 

I Can’t Make You Love Me- Male Version

I’ve posted here Bonnie Raitt’s video of her most haunting song, I Cant Make You Love Me, I got a new yet very different version of it from Youtube, it’s sung by a guy but still as haunting ang gutt wrenching as the original. Cry on!

Can’t Wait For June

The posters are out, a few more months and the movie will finally hit the big screen. I need to re-read the book again to really psyche me up… Go Potter!

Ecstatic about the scene at the cave.

Professor Slughorn!!!

Ron plays Quidditch…finally!

Dumbledore’s death….

Can’t wait for June.

Susan Boyle- You’re A Star!

It’s always touch my heart when underdogs like Susan Boyle finally get what they truly deserve.

clap! clap! clap!

clink this link for the video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnmbJzH93NU

Can’t Be Peter Pan Forever

I can’t be Peter Pan forever, at some point I’ll need to brush off the pixie dusts, stop thinking of happy thoughts from the past, quit playing with my shadow and eventually grow up.

Wicked-I’m Not That Girl

I just read a friend’s blog and her latest entry reminded me of this song, it’s from the musical Wicked, it’s sung by Elphaba. Wicked is a story of the unlikely friendship of the Wicked Witch of the West which is Elphaba and the Glinda the Good. Yes, the characters are from the Wizard of Oz and the story happened before Dorothy came into the picture.

Elphaba sung the song after she realized that she might be falling for Fiyero,Glinda’s boyfriend. Elphaba being the most unpopular student in the school because of her weird appearance know that she doesn’t stand a chance to Fiyero’s affection especially that his girlfriend is the most beautiful and most popular in the university.

Elphaba singing I’m not that girl.

I’m Not That Girl

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I’m not that girl:

Don’t dream too far
Don’t lose sight of who you are
Don’t remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I’m not that girl

Ev’ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn’t soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who’s winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That’s the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I’m not that girl:

Don’t wish, don’t start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn’t born for the rose and the pearl
There’s a girl I know
He loves her so
I’m not that girl

Heat

Tumotodo talaga ngayon ang summer, para bang wala ng summer next year (knock on wood!!) sa sobrang init ng panahon. I went out of the house at around 1 pm to do some errands, I cannot even open my eyes sa sobrang liwanag at sikat ng araw, i had to go back and pick up my shades and umbrella. Even the feel of the heat on my skin is very different para talagang sinusunog ang balat ko. I checked the temperature and it’s freaking 39 degrees celsius!! Kung sa tao ito, e lagnat na ito, malapit lapit na sa kombulsyon…pwede ka ng mag-hallucinate ng giant ice cream o di kaya ng sangkatutak na electric fan at payong, diba parang tempatation island lang.

kailangan kong magpalamig.

It’s All Up To You

You’re at it again and there’s no one to blame but you, You let negativity ruin the potentiality of everthing in front of you and now you’re back at where you ought not be. Why Simon? You were’nt like that before, you used to be this big furry ball of positivity, you were the person people run to when they feel what you’re feeling now, you were funshine…whatever happened to you?!?

I know things that have happened in the past have anchored you in this state of nothingness, knocked you off course but it’s been awhile, you should have moved on, you should have used those pain to fuel yourself up, why do you have to dwell on it? why do you have to think of it every waking moment?

You have had you’re go’s for second chances, bright chances for something better but you were forever in destructive mode, why? Why are you finding faults in every silver lining in sky? why do you look at the filth in everything that comes your way? Why do you refuse to heal? Yes. Someone broke your heart but why do you have to dust it to powder, why do you have to let your soul be ripped too? You can’t be like this forever. You can’t keep ruining your opportunities to bounce back… you need to heal, you need to let go… drop it all and start again.  Simon, it’s all up to you.