A Change Of Heart

( A year old draft I forgot to publish)

As I walk slowly away from his car, our seven year worth relationship flashback before me, It wasn’t that bad, We had fine moments and it makes me wonder hurtingly what went wrong, for him to cheat on me for over a year. It was just a week ago when I found out about his affair with another guy, He cried when I confronted him, he asked for another chance, made new promises and I being the ever gullible optimistic me, gave in and gave him the chance he was tearfully asking for.

Now, As I walk away from a black car with a guy I think I know all my life and as I delete all the messages from his lover confirming that they are still together even after he told me that they already broke up a week ago from my phone, I tried to check if my heart still beats and if my eyes would still well up, they’re not. I was numb as ice, all I could hear was the sound of my breath and all I could see was the lone light of a street lamp a block away from me. I get it. This is how it feels to have a change of heart… Nothing.