From Blast to Blah and Back

Friday started out way too early than the usual. Went off with my students and co teachers to an event at SMX. Everything seems to be going great. It was a time-off from the usual classroom routine that I have and the kids seems to be enjoying the event. We met some of the best chefs in the country that day. It was a blast!

Met the cutest chef on earth… at least in my book! Blast!

He’s Chef Eugene  Raymundo and he’s a food stlylist. The picture above (and the suceeding) is taken from the web. Yes! Lumabas na naman ang pagka-stalker ko, only because I was so into his lecture that I forgot to take pictures. He’s such a cutie!

He does styling for commercials and print ads for major restaurant and food company. I think I got a new crush! Blast and some fireworks! 

Lunchtime: May nagsamantala na malapit ako sa Makati that day. Someone brought me cupcakes again. It seems like cupcakes are the new bouquet of flowers. These are red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese icing.  Blast!

After the event I decided to stay a while longer, killed time with the my society officers along the bay area in MOA. I was at the height of the temptation to text him and tell him I was just nearby and that I would love to see him pero siyempre nagtimpi ako ng mabuti. It’s better this way at least for me.

Sundown, I decided to finally go home. En route to LRT station an idea crossed my mind: it’s still early and it’s friday night and I still have the membership card with me (I was contemplating on throwing it)… Why not try going at The Dark alone?  This sound like a blast!

So, I did. I got tempted to text him that I’m at The Dark, but then it came to me that this place is where I really lost him. The last time that we were here was like hell at least for me. I realized that I was actually doing all those stuffs to win him back and that my idea of a relationship won’t ever be happening with him. Never. With all that remembered, I decided to drop the idea of texting him and just enjoy the night alone.

 I roamed around the area and ended up chatting with a guy, which I’m not sure if I like, for almost 2 hours which ended in a fairytale-like scene: Me abruptly ending the conversation because I needed to go home already. Cinderella as always. We never even got to exchange numbers which I really don’t intend to do so.

Homeward bound, I felt shitty. I don’t know why. Blah.

Maybe it’s the places that I’ve been the entire day, it all reminded me of him and us. The temptation to text him that I’m in his side of town was overwhelming but also the fear of getting rejected, of him telling me that he can’t make it yet again made it all more depressing. Blah.

Maybe it’s the feeling of being alone, of searching and looking for an absolution again. Blah.

Maybe it’s the idea that I may never fall in love again. I’ve got a few people that have really been vocal about their feelings towards me, sending me cupcakes and asking me out on dates and all those sort of thing that should make someone feel “kilig” but all those things and gestures seems to be not doing the magic they’re supposed to do. How do you fall again? Blah.

I felt way more shitty when I realized I was back at page one again. It took me almost a year to get over him and it just took him a few months to make me fall again and crush me all over again. Major Blah.

Got home that day at exactly 11:45 pm. Being the usual optimistic me, I decided that this Friday won’t end with a blah… After changing into my most comfortable clothes I took out the ice cream (Rocky Road flavor, my favorite!)that I’ve been saving for nights like this and watched Sex and the City on my laptop. Ice Cream and my four favorite girls to cap the night off… Well, It was a blast after all!

Chico & Delamar’s New Book

It always happens. When I’m home I get to think of things that I would buy as soon as I have time to go to the mall but when I’m already at the mall I forget everything so I always end up tired and empty-handed. So, while I was waiting for the two witches for our dinner, I decided to roam around the mall with nothing to buy I drifted from shop to shop and from boutique after boutique when it finally hit me that I have been eagerly wanting to buy the new book by Chico and Delamar. I excitedly went off to Fully Booked and found the book just at the entrance of the store. The two customer who went ahead of me in the cashier also bought the same book and we we’re like smiling at each other. Super good vibes!

Just a back story: I’ve always been a fan of Chico and Delamar, I started listening to their show when I was in high school coz my sisters used to listen to them. Followed them when they tranferred station and back. I can honestly say that I got inclined to the English language because of their show. I studied at a Public High School but aced my entrance exam on a State University due to my inclination on grammar, vocabulary etc thru Morning Rush. I continued listening while I was in college, although I’m not an active listener there’ll be times where I try to send in a few entries in their now famed Morning Rush Top Ten. I miss a few segments that they used to have like “Like A Version”, wherein they play two songs that somehow resemble each other or a version of an old song.

I don’t get to listen to it anymore. I’m a college professor now, so my day really starts early but I follow Chico’s blog which is my source of news from the show, glad to see Delamar having a baby and that Gio guy is cute! Lol! I learned about the book from the Chico’s blog and made a mental note to buy one. So, I bought one! I’ve always been a fan, I actually bought their cassette tape way back in the 90′s, though I lost it na. Sana they release a CD copy…

Ang haba na pala ng naisulat ko!

To Chico and Delamar,

You two are a bundle of good vibes! keep doing what you’re doing. You are actually touching people’s lives. I love you both.

P.S.: I was iyak-tawa while watching your Spoon interview with Janice De Belen!

Dinner With The Charmed Ones

This dinner has been put off for the longest time most of which I was the one backing out just because I’m way too lazy to go out. Since it’s new year and one of my promise to make time for friends I decided to go and have dinner with Peach and Wendy on a Friday the 13th as a homage to one of our favorite show. Charmed. I’m Page by the way… Lol!

Mother Wendy and I go way back to my first ever job in the BPO industry,that was 2006, we trained together but a few weeks or months after we decided to leave the company we working for back then. We somehow managed to stay in contact all through that years.

Peach and I became friends also in the BPO industry. We worked together for almost a year, sat together while taking calls and sharing gossip in between callers.

Mother Wendy is the one wearing the floral blouse and Peach is the one wearing black.

We had dinner at Tokyo Cafe, one of my favorite restaurant. We all had my favorite Yoshi’s Burger which we all consumed while catching up on each other’s life. Syempre, highlight of the night is Mother Wendy’s mala- No Other Woman story, if only for those quotable quotes… Pak na pak ang gabi!

I promised Mother Wendy that I will blog about her story which I’m not sure if I can fulfill kasi super complicated nung story to the point na we have to continue it habang nagkakape…

Quotes of the night which made me and Peach clap and kneel before Mother Weng:

“So, anong gusto mong patunayan? Na mas magaling kang mag-blowjob kaysa sakin?!”

“Gusto mong i-demo ko sayo ang difference ng kurot sa kissmark?! kukurutin ko yung isang braso mo tapos sisipsipin ko yung isa, tignan natin kung ano ang kapareho ng nasa dibdib mo?!”

“Destiny? kayong dalawa ng asawa ko ang destiny!? So, ano ako? extra?!”

There are actually a lot, di ko na maalala yung iba… The event actually happened 3 years ago at pangalawang beses ko narinig yung story but I asked Mother to tell Peach the story kasi nga winner… In the middle of her story humarap sakin si Mother Wendy sabay sabi ng “Alam mo, fuck you ka teh! bumabalik yung poot e, tuwang tuwa ka naman sa storya ko!” which made us all burst into laughter again… more on tawa lang the entire night.

Photo Flood coming in…

Peach didn’t age much habang ang litanya nila sa akin ay mukhang akong tumanda… Salamat sa honesty mga friends ha!

This is the Yoshi’s burger. Super sarap with the added tomato-meat sauce.

I’m starting to love this new camera. Cute shots!

2011 OST: Music That Got Me Through the Year

Aside from my ever supportive friends, one major thing that kept me sane and got me through my roller coaster ride like life in 2011 was great music. There have been times where good friends can’t make it right in the moment I was feeling low and it’s such a relief to have my music handy to keep my sanity intact. If I were to produce an album or an official soundtrack for 2011 these are the songs that would make it.

1. Don’t be the reason, don’t be the reason, You better learn how to treat us right, ‘Cause once a good girl goes bad, we die forever -Good Girl Gone Bad (Rihanna)

I thought that after the break-up I’ll be pessimistic and would go on a “destructive phase” but apparently I didn’t, Thank God for good friends. This song describes how I felt for being always the good boy in the relationship and how much I wanted to be bad that time. Apparently, I can’t be bad; no matter how hard I try I’ll always be that good boy.

2. Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight, I’m beginning to see the light. Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight but I think I’ll be alright. – Candles (Hey Monday)

I made it a point not to listen to sad heart break song while I was going through my post break-up phase, I actually deleted those type of song on my player. This song, though it may sound like one  of those heart break song, has a positive mantra. A powerful lyrics that talk about finally letting go and being cool with going solo.

3. Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko, Nagbago man ang hugis ng puso mo. Handa na ‘kong hamunin ang aking mundo pagkat tuloy pa rin… – Tuloy Pa Rin (Neocolours)

Iniyakan ko itong kanta ito. Habang nasa jeep, habang naglalakad pauwi naka-replay sa player ko itong kantang ito. Sa videoke, hindi pwedeng hindi ko ito kantahin during those times. The song is more of a promise to me that I’ll go on, that life goes on even if I’m broken. Choz.

4. Someday, somebody’s gonna make you want to turn around and say goodbye. Till then baby, are gonna let him hold you down and make you cry? Don’t you know, things will change, things are gonna go your way…if you hold on for one more day. – Hold on (Wilson Phillips)

This is the quintessential power song for people who want to move on. I remember singing it out loud whenever I’m home alone during the first few months after the break up, I would sing it at the top of my lung with matching emotions, luhaan ako after. It was a very helpful exercise; it was like releasing all those stuck up emotion thru a song, more of you talking to yourself, giving advice. I know pang-baliw na gawain pero sabi nga sa isang kanta ni Alanis Morrissette “ No, were never gonna survive, unless we get a little crazy”, kaya tama lang.

5. I bet it sucks to be you right now – Best Thing I Never Had (Beyonce)

When I got tired of “Hold On” this was the song I ended up singing out loud naman. More of saying that I’m better off without you at ikaw ang nawalan nang maghiwalay tayo.  Siguro isang buwan rin siyang on replay sa player ko.

6. All of the dirt you’ve throwing my way, it ain’t so hard to take, that’s right! Coz I know one day, you’ll be screaming my name… and I’ll just look away! – Loser Like Me (GLEE)

I so love this song! I admit, may pagka-loser naman talaga ako sa lahat ng bagay. This song somehow empowers the underdogs at sobrang nakakarelate ako. Naging banner song ko rin ito for quite awhile in 2011.

7. So, Raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways, all my underdogs! We will never be anything but loud and nitty gritty dirty little freaks! – Raise Your Glass (Pink)

For the underdogs as well! Banner song for people who doesn’t want to be boxed and ruled over.

8. At heto naman ako, nakikinig sa mga kwento mong paulit-ulit lang. Nagtitiis kahit nasasaktan. – Kung Ako na Lang Sana (Sarah Geronimo)

This song also had been on replay in my player. The story behind the song will require a separate blog entry. Someday, when the dust settles I’ll probably be able to tell the entire story but for now hanggang kanta lang muna.

9. I dreamed of your name next to my own but mine’s looking fine out there alone! – So Much Better (Legally Blonde the Musical)

This song inspires me always to be better after the break-up. Siguro kaya di rin ako dumaan sa destructive phase kasi I’ve got muses to look up to like Ms Elle Woods. Choz. Kapag I needed to feel inspired or confident I always listen to this song. Lakas maka-good vibes e!

10. I’m over, overthinking of how to get you back. I’m checking out for the weekend and I aint going back…I dont need no shoulder, I’m gonna be a soldier!-  Louder (Charice)

I discovered this song mga later part of the year na but nonetheless I love the message of the song plus the beat is intoxicating ang sarap ulit ulitin nung kanta. The line above clearly describes how I’m feeling now..

11. And I know someday that it’ll all turn out, You’ll make me work, so we can work to work it out. And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get, I just haven’t met you yet! – Haven’t Met You Yet (Michael Buble)

 This song is bursting with positivity. I like how the song describes how ready I’am to finally fall in love and is just waiting for the right person to come along. Like the song says, I know it’s gonna so amazing… Malapit na malapit na!

P.S.

To Jaz, thanks for giving an idea for this blog entry. mwah!

JanSix 2012

It’s my Birthday!!!

It’s seems like having your birthday when your single is way more fun than when you are in a relationship. Well, so far this is the happiest birthday that I had. Simple yet happy.

The day started out with a surprise. I was approached by the school guard and was handed with boxes of Cupcakes by Sonja, I have been craving for sweets for quite sometime now that I even posted here on my blog that I want some for my birthday… Lucky me, someone does read my blog and took some actions. The card that the cupcakes went with doesn’t say who sent it, so it was a mystery for quite some time but now I know who that person is… Mr. Harry Potter, Maraming Salamat! You set the my mood for the entire day with that surprise, No one has ever done something that special to me. Thanks!

Yummy treat!!!

 The whole day was filled with laughs and love as the entire school greeted me on my special day, apparently there were post on bulletin boards greeting me on my birthday… So, nalaman talaga ng buong school, nakakahiya pala yung lahat ng makasalubong mo binabati ka but I really felt loved and special , to quote my co-teacher Jaz and Westlife… “I must be doing something right…”

At around lunchtime, I was called to the dean’s office for an “emergency meeting” with my HRM and Tourism Club officers. It really felt weird coz my Dean seems to be grasping for words to say while facilitating then the second surprise came in… My students bought me cake, It was for me and my Tourism Org. president, EJ, he celebrated his birthday last January 4.

Here’s the whole class with Dean and Birthday Boy Me and EJ.

Here’s another one…

We had a pizza party after… though pictures were scarce sine everyone was enjoying…

It was a really fun birthday for me!

And for all those who greeted me on Facebook, they were about a hundred! To my students, co-teachers, ex co-workers, classmates from high school, elementary and college, my relatives, my crushes and my family. SALAMAT for a super fun day! I really really felt loved.

 

First Gift

An early birthday gift from Ms. A and Enrico. Chocolate overload. Thanks!!

Lapit Na!

2 more days and it’s my birthday already!

Craving for some Cupcakes by Sonja’s

This Year’s Peg

Peg – a projecting piece used as a support or boundary marker; something (as fact or issue) used as a support, pretext or reason. -(Merriam-Webster)

This year, I’m aiming for a “Neil Patrick Harris like lovelife”. Suntok sa buwan! Hahaha!

Here’s Neil Patrick with David Burtka his partner for 7 years and their adoring twins. Such a cute family!

Here they are all dressed up for Halloween. i know, it’s like shooting for the stars but what the heck! This is what i want! Hahaha!

And I stumbled upon a super super kilig video. Gusto ko rin i-peg ito this year. Watch the video, It’s so love-inspiring! I always cry when I watch this video. Oh well! that’s the hopeless romantic kid in me! Watch! watch! watch!

CLICK THIS FOR THE VIDEO

Love, love and more love this 2012!

My 2012 To-Do-List

2011 is coming to a close. It’s been a year of roller coaster emotions and I must admit that I may have learned a few or more lessons from it. Though, I know for a fact that in terms of moving forward it seems like I just budged a few inches and then crawled back an inch again, funny thing is it seems like I’m doomed for the worst if I don’t pull my act together. So, as an attempt to straighten things out, gain a momentum and finally pull myself together back again, here’s my 2012 to-do-list!

My To-Do-List may seem a bit vague; I don’t want to really have a list of chores to do but rather things that I should be doing the whole year round sort of lifestyle changes.

1. Write More – If you have noticed my blog has not been updated for months. The reason I created this blog is to chronicle my life and it seems like this blog is not catching up on my life. It’s either I’m way too busy with life that I don’t get to write about it or I get way too much free to write about something but then my life at that time is boring. So, I’ll try to make it a habit to write at least one post per week and if it works and my life then becomes way to interesting I’ll try to write one post per day.

2. Be Daring – 2011 saw me doing a lot of things that I thought I would never do. I’ve worked in a ship for the summer which got me travelling by sea as far as Zamboanga Del Norte, took my summer M.A. class at risk of getting broke, changed workplace, climbed a mountain, danced in front of hundreds of students, went on a trip to Cebu which got me riding a plane for the first time, zip lined on top on the tallest building in Cebu, went on dates with strangers (which I really don’t do!) and a whole lot more that may be to R-rated for this blog hahaha! So, I promise to myself to be more daring this time and try a lot of new things this year; I don’t have any particular thing in mind right now but as soon as I cross path with those “new things” I’ll write about it!

3. Be Sexy – Ok, I was supposed to write “eat healthier” or “Go to gym” but I realized that both activity are directed toward No. 3 To-Do-list, Since ‘Be Sexy” is more of an inspiring goal rather than just chores that’s need to be done like eating healthy and going to the gym, I chose that phrase to represent No. 3.  Well, the plan is to enroll myself in a nearby gym and to start watching my diet hopefully its effect will be physically manifested by summer. Hehehe! So, hopefully if all things work out fine, I’ll be a sexier Simon by summer. (This one needs a lot of crossed fingers!)

4. Work! Work! Work! – I just got the most perfect present this Christmas and that is being awarded as one of the Most Outstanding Faculty in school; it’s a super priceless “pat on the back” and I appreciate it so much but then again I think that I was falling way too short for my standards when it comes to my work. I want to be able to really teach and make a difference in my students’ life (Mother Theresa isdatchu?!) I just want everything to flow smoothly I guess and to be able to really teach these kids about the things they really should be learning. Well, my point is I should take my job more seriously now.

5. Fall Out of Love Already – Admit that it will never work. It never has and it will never will. Let go already.

6. Fall in Love Already! – It’s been a year now and if you check this blog I actually have an entry where I promised myself to be single for a year just to give myself some proper time to heal and to mourn. During that one year, I’ve had my shares of romances that never really led to falling in love or settling in a relationship, I don’t know if it’s me honoring a promise I made to myself or was I just way too afraid of falling in love again. Every time I feel like I’m about to fall for someone I automatically disconnect. Am I fucked up by that “8 years”? I don’t know. January is right outside the doorstep and as promised I can already be in a relationship by then, I want to be in one again, believe me! But I also want to fall in love first. A friend once told me, “You’ll eventually fall in love again and be in a wonderful relationship that would last more than 8 years. You deserve that and more. You’re a good man. Wait ka lang, Sabi ni Direk… Kelangan perfect ang timing.” Maybe perfect timing means I have already healed enough and ready to love someone again and I think I’m more than ready now and I’m sure that the person I’ll love in the future is super lucky coz he’ll have me now that I’m at my best.

7. Save! – Save for the rainy days! I admit I’m a “one-day millionaire”, I always perfectly mismanage my moolah. This year will be the year I start saving for my future. It’s no joke, Money is always fleeting, it comes and goes faster than you expect. I’ll try to save at least a few bucks off my salary and forget about it. Seriously! (Another one that needs a lot of fingers crossed!)

8. Spend more time with family and friends – They were there when I needed them the most, it’s just pay back time. I wouldn’t be able to go through 2011 without my family and friends. More dates and more dinner with them!

I think that’s about it! When I come up with something new to add I’ll just post it on a separate entry but for now this is enough. Here’s to hoping 2012 will be one helluva of a ride! Cheers!

Rock of Ages – Something to Look Forward in 2012

Click here for the Trailer

I’ve been wanting to see this broadway musical eversince I saw snippets of it being performed in Tony Awards. Finally I get to see it in big screen with Tom Cruise and Catherine Zeta Jones. Definitely something to look forward to in 2012.